June 11, 2008
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Semi-random rantings
Okay, so it has been a while since I had a serious
update. I have been busy getting the
vestiges of school done for the foreseeable future. There really is nothing new to report. I am still single; I have not made any
progress in my calculations from this
post, and I am in the process of looking for a job.However, I would like to take some time to expand upon the
above mentioned post. I have to be
honest; I am a very calculating person.
I put a lot of thought into every major action. I suppose that is why I am an ISTJ. Sometimes it is a good thing; other times not
so good.I am close to graduation now, and looking for a job to begin
my professional career. Not sure where
anything will lead. I’ve done what I can;
now I just have to leave it up to God. This
brings me to a comment several people made regarding my game
theory/relationship post. Several people
asked me where God was in the whole picture.
I do have to admit I did neglect God in my planning. I don’t know what my future holds, whether it
will be here in Dallas or somewhere else.
That unknown aspect of everything frustrates me. I know it shouldn’t, but it does.However, since I put that post up and now a few things have
changed. Well, okay, so not a lot. I’m still focused on one particular lady, I still
haven’t made an approach, and I’m still having trouble reconciling a few
issues. There’s really nothing big about
these issues, but it is the ISTJ in me that makes the issues big. I’ve been wallowing in indecision for too
long and I need to take action. What
kind of action you ask? Well, I just
need to man up and initiate, whatever may come of it.This leads me to another set of issues entirely. Sure I dated a few times before, but I had
only one real serious relationship where I was almost ready to buy a ring. That one ended without much fanfare. We’re still friends, but there’s no
possibility for us to resume our relationship.
Since then I almost started a relationship and tried to start another. With the former, circumstances made it so I
had to leave before anything could develop.
The latter was a case of rejection.
Both hurt, a lot. I was able
reconcile the first several over a year ago when I went back to California for
a visit. The second I have reconciled
and accepted, and we remain friends. What
does that mean now? I don’t know.
Comments (2)
haha...thanks, man. i appreciate the love...
i think i'm ISTJ as well. hmmmm...
You will find the right one when you arent looking. that is how it always seems to work
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