1.  For the past week, my stomach has not been very settled.  I don't know if it is because I have a bug, or I am just overly anxious about something.  I am thinking it may be a combination of the both.  However, more likely it is the latter.

2.  On the note of the previous topic, many people have been asking me about that something.  I can only tell them that I am still having trouble coming up with win/lose values.  Several people have suggested that I abandon the statistics and just go or it.  Unfortunately that is not an easy task.  This is a very big decision, and that requires statistical analysis.  What makes it more difficult is that every time I come up with a move set, I think of more variables, and then have to recreate a whole new move set with victory conditions.  This alone has made it hard to come up with a solution, let alone a Nash Equilibrium.  For those that work with game theory, I'm sure you appreciate my difficulties.

3.  God has presented me another opportunity.  IMB is looking for people to teach English in Korea.  I am thinking about applying for the program.  I will be done with school in the Summer.  This is just one more thing for me to consider, and it also is another variable I need to add to the above matrix.

1.  Parking.  This morning while I was walking to class from the parking lot, I saw this girl trying to parallel park her VW Bug.  She must have backed in and pulled out five times by the time I passed her.  What's more is when I looked back after crossing the street, she was STILL trying to park.  Give me a break how hard is ti to park a car that small in a space where to could fit two of those things.  If you cannot properly parallel park your car, you should not be driving.  Seriously, it's not that hard. 

2.  I was sick most of yesterday.  I don't know if it was something I ate the previous night or what.  But, I was down for the count for most of the day.  I feel better today.

3.  Getting closer to making a decision about something.  Still, doing some game theory analysis, but hopefuly I can figure things out.  I hope I'm not being to analytical about this.  This is going to bother me for a while, until I finish my analysis and calculations.  Right now, I'm just having trouble coming up with win/lose values.

1. Last night was a rather enjoyable night.  I went to a pryaer and praise night at a friend's house.  It felt good to just praise then be focused on praising and A/V stuff at the same time. 

2. I still have other things that are on my mind.  I want to make a decision on something, but not sure how to approach it.

3. Thinking about going to China.

Okay so I have just this semester and two classes in summer and I will be done and with a degree.  Not the only question is what to do afterward.  I still want to teach and currently researching place to go do a credential program.  However, I am still open to other opportunities that may arise.  The big question is do I want to stay in Dallas or move somewhere else. 

On that lines I want to do something, but I don't want to commit to anything and then move away.  So many other things to think about while trying to finish up.  

New computer or new camera?

I got back from the retreat at 4:00 yesterday morning. The guys in the car I was riding in decided to leave early rather than try to sleep and wake up early. It was a very tiring weekend, but good. It gave me time to think and to take a step back and seek God. Something I have been neglecting for the past half year. The two things that I feel God has taught me are that I need to be more erstwhile in seeking Him, and that I need to channel my driven nature.

Along the lines of the latter, I have to say that I was really broken about my attitude. The past several months I was very frustrated about the time and effort I was putting into serving in A/V ministry. Every week coming in for praise practice, and coming in early on Fridays to work on the sermon and prep for Friday worship. December was an especially frustrating month with all the special events. There were a few times that I wanted to just up and quit, but I could not bring myself to do so.

During a time of prayer and commitment, Pastor John Lee, our speaker gave us the opportunity to be anointed into a Daniel like lifestyle. At first many people lined up while I was still focused on getting a camera shot established, and finalizing some other things. I wanted to go up, but I just did not feel right in the heart. So, I went to the back of the room and got down on my knees in prayed to God asking Him if my heart was ready to make that kind of commitment. After about five or ten minutes of prayer I felt compelled to go up and join the line. As I was in line and hearing Pastor John praying over each and every person with specificity, my mind raced with thoughts about what he would pray over me about. It took a great effort to quiet my mind and to focus on the hearing the voice of God.

Pastor John’s payer for me was very eerily accurate. He said that he saw me as a much focused individual, someone that goes all out in everything that I do. And that I serve the Lord in the same manner. When he said that I was broken inside, and the tears flowed. I understood that was who I am, and that was how I served. I realized that I had become so focused on the serving aspect that I missed the bigger picture of why. It was not important to God that I was doing all this work, what was important was that I enjoyed serving. God delighted in the joy I had for serving. What’s more is that I understood that God wanted me to put the same effort and focus I have for serving to seeking after Him.

I think that will be my focus for this year, more than thinking about the next step in my life. If I stay focused on the former, the latter will become evident.

It's the new year.  Let's make it a good one. 

Pray that this year will be filled with blessings for all.  And pray for those who are far off and can't be home with their families and pray that they come home safe.

I might have to go to Korea in a few days or so. 

We were having Christmas Eve dinner when we heard my grandmother passed away.  I'll keep you posted on weather or not I will be going.

*EDIT: Okay, due to schedules and flight availability, we will not be going to Korea anytime soon.

Christmas is just around the corner.  I have just been so busy with school and church stuff that I almost lost track of time.  At least I got all of my shopping done.  I did that all last month, and all online.  No malls for this guy. 

Being 20-something years old, there is very little that I want.  But, if you do want to get me a gift here are the top items I want:

1. Winchester 700 chambered for 7.62 x 54


2. Samsung wide screen television


3. Xbox 360 Elite


4. Springfield XD 45ACP


5. Girlfriend

If you can help out with any of those that would be greatly appriciated.  (Of course I am only kidding about one of those.)

Merry Christmas, y'all.

It was a nice balmy 34 degrees (that's in fahrenheit) when my oponent and I faced off.  It was easy going for the first mile, then the cold started getting to me.  (My lungs are still hurting.)  In the end my lungs just decided to crap out at the with about quarter mile to go.  So, I will admit defeat, and await the next rematch.  (And next time it will be a 30 mile forced march with 60 pound packs.)  Regardless, I will hold my head up high and walk on (unless of course, my lungs and heart decided to stop functioning).